So, I don't know how most of you are today, but I am tired as all hell. As of late, my legs have been killing me like all hell and I can't really tell why. They are hurting now and then like they used to, with sharp intense pain running down my legs. Other times, I just feel like my legs need to keep moving. That's classic with RLS, but far as I know I don't have that. I guess it's just residual nerve damage from the back surgeries. Nice.

How is the weather where ever you (the one reading this) is? It's about 74 here, but in the low side of it..it's cold and over cast, the sky is threatening to unleash a torrent of rain fall. It's some what needed. Unless you are one of those people that water their lawn for 3 hours a day everyday...you don't need it, your lawn is probly dying by now and praying for the sun....

I also have been dealing with my insomnia and it seems like the meds that I have that are supposed to make me sleepy, arent. So, I tried uping the dosage myself and that didn't work. Don't worry I didn't over do it, just took one extra Soma. So I am going to have to go see my doctor real soon here about it as well as the rods that keep shifting in my ass. Trust me, it doesn't make it easy to fall asleep when you lay down and you barly turn one way and you feel a pop,move back to where you were, and it pops again...

I pray for the day when I will be done will all this crap. But before that day can even come, I have to go BACK down to L.A. and be seen by one of the doc's that is also a workmans comp ortho, but I have a feeling that they are trying to turn me into shish kabob. Their and insurance company, it's their job to ruin peoples lives.

So until october, I am supposed to just deal with seeing my doc up here in Portland who isn't an ortho and has requested that I be seen by one up here or if need be, to be seen down back in CA! It took 3 months for autherization for Pain Management. But I can't start that till september...I've been up here for 6 months, it took 3 months to find a place to go to for my medical needs, found the closest Concentra to me, and had to wait all this time. Noone should have to suffer that way. Not only physically, but emotionally. I guess that's health care today...and it blows. Better pray you don't get injured on the job.

Anywho, I suppose I should end this now so I don't ramble on like I have a tendency to do anyways.




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