I just thought I'd give ya'all a breif update....
Brandie is doing a hell of a lot better, not 100% but hey...She's alive and I'm sure glad about that. Her docs all agree pretty much that they thyroid has to come out..now it's just a matter of finding out what blood disorder she has and then setting a date, bridging her off of the blood thinners, doing it, then putting her back on them again.
She's still up and running around, chapping my hide about stuff, keeping me in line...showing me that she is my light at the end of my tunnel when my depression hits. And it got bad for a while there, I shut down and didn't talk to anyone, didn't know what to say and finally just had a break down at my doc's office and I have since been feeling a little better. It's only been about 2 weeks, but still. I have been taking my anti-depressants...though I forgot yesterday, took them today though. And I have agreed to see a counselor. So I have to get on that soon.
Also,Her and I have finally decided...with the help of our doctor...that it's time and would be good for my physical and mental health to start testosterone. He said that he thinks it will help alot with my depression, since this is what it mainly steams from. And Brandie and I have already set up the boundries and what not. I have done extensive research on the pro's and con's of the use of T. I always study up on it, read presonal experiances and I run a support site for friends family of trans male's and female's.
I have links on that page, as well as alot of other imformational links. One thing I think every parent should look into is either P-Flag, or read up on what is going on with their child, adult or adolecent. There are alot of books out there, extensive articles online, online support/therapy groups...and even on YouTube you can just put in Transgender in the search engine and it will bring up alot of good things as well as alot of weird things.
With my parents Im blessed. I know that it's hard especially for my mom, and I understand that. I was born as a little girl, but she always knew I was "differnt". And she has been supportive of me through out my whole life. Like I told her, to her and my family I will aways be the daughter, the grand daughter, neice, aunt, what ever. But for me, for my everyday life...Im that guy on the street walkin around with a smile, the husband that loves his wife for all that she is, the friend that people lean on when things are rough. I am Reese. And because my parents gave me my bio name, I would like their help in picking a more approriate middle name for me.
I asked my dad what he would have named me if I was born the way that I feel I am, and he laughed and said my brothers name. I half expected that. And at the same time I considered taking the same middle name they gave him too.
Point is, life is full of up's and down's. Though I haven't always been able to see the end all the way, I am finally able to see a glimpse of what that end could look like. And I like it alot. And part of that end, is my family..as awsome as they are...there with me through it all. I love you mom and dad, grandma-donna, papa and g-ma, Dinee, everyone.
I thank everyone, especially Brandie, for helping me feel love, and alive...everyday. -Big smile-
I will leave you with a clip from YouTube about being trans. I hope it will help.
Reese
p.s. I will update all of you when I find out when I will be getting my blood test done and when I know the date of my first T shot.
It is about 76 minutes long..but please, take the time to watch it and if anyone has any questions, please feel free to ask me or check out my support site... http://www.groups.google.com/group/Transsupport
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